So like, okay, as I was saying, I finally got the balls to leave my wack-ass, no future job at Countrywide. Fortunately, I got accepted to Cal State Long Beach, so I packed on up out of my parent's house and moved here to LB. Spring semester was my first semester back to school after 5 f-ing years. I was so excited to go back to school, but I was also really nervous. I didn't want to come back and get mediocre or bad grades. I wanted to do GOOD and I knew I was going to have to work mad hard to do that. That's exactly what I had to do. Seriously, there's no possible way I could have worked AND go to school full time. I made my schedule so that I only had classes on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. On my days off though, I HAD to do my homework. If I had a job, there'd be no way I could focus on doing schoolwork. Taking 4 classes is definitely not the same as just taking one class. Anyways, I don't need to get into every detail of my first semester so let me fast forward to the end of the semester . . . . So my hard work and stress paid off for me. I ended my first semester with a 3.8 GPA. I literally jumped up and down when I saw my final grades hahaha. That one moment was more fulfilling to me than anything during my 5 years at Countrywide. And this is gonna sound really lame I know, but I felt super sexy too lol. I'm still adjusting to not working and being poor, but I'm so glad I decided to return to school. I now feel like I have an ambition and that all the sacrifices I've had to make will be worth it in the end. Let me just tell you, I CANNOT WAIT to get my Communication Studies Degree!
DAMN, I am sooooo lame. November 28, TWO THOUSAND SIX was the last time I posted something. That is so typical me hahaha. My GOD so much has happened since then. (Here's a more recent picture of me hahaha) Well by far the biggest thing that's happened to me is I'm back in school! Yup, I am a junior at Cal State Long Beach, sexy huh? For those of you who don't know me, I was working for uber-lame mortgage company and just uber-lame company in general, Countrywide Home Loans. I started working there in 2002 and I swear I never in my wildest nightmares thought I would stay there for so long, but I did. It's funny how being comfortable somewhere can actually get you stuck, which is exactly what happened with me. I had no interest in the mortgage industry, the job I had was just easy and I made pretty good money. Comfort doesn't necessarily mean happiness though. After nearly 5 years in that 8-5 boring hell hole, I found myself lost and I realized I had forgotten about the dreams and goals I had made for myself a long time ago. I've always wanted to work in the entertainment industry. I want to have a career where I can use my imagination, be creative, and more importantly, do what makes me happy. It took a long time to get through my hard head, but I finally realized, I need to go back to school and get my degree. For the longest time though I questioned how I would get back to school. It was always "How Jay? You have to pay for your car, you're going to have to pay rent, how are you going to afford everything if you don't work here at Countrywide?" All that questioning took up so much of my time, I wasn't going anywhere. So I said, FUCK IT, just do it, don't ask how, face the obstacles when you they come to you. I mustered up the courage and quit my job. It turned out to be the best decision I could have ever made . . . and I'll tell you why in the next post because it's late and I need to gets to bed!
